It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You want to settle down for good because now all of a sudden that becomes top priority. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.You begin to think a companion for life is better than a hundred in the shack and for once you would not mind standing tall for that special someone which otherwise you had never thought of until now.You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
We call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." :-)
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
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Well this was earlier called the mid age crisis. People used to suffer the syndrome in late 30s or early 40s. Interestingly, like many other syndromes, the age of getting it seems to be comming down.
Would not be surpirsed if people start calling it teen age crisis soon :-)
Anyways, good compilation Poornima.
Good Work Poornima..Reflection of many life at this age @ 20..
Hope the fear is good in some perspective
Poornima,
First of all i am impressed by your Blog, and your outlook on life, you might want to check http://www.acim.org
which says close to what you have said, like "Projection Makes Perception"
I live in Maryland, and work for a Mobile App Development Company as a Quality Assurance Engineer.
If you implemented Ryan's cppUnitLite did you get it to work, i am trying it out with Visual Studio 2008 Pro, and was not able to get the message "There were no Test Failures" on stdout, from the fprintf statement.
You can contack me directly at kamal2222ahmed@gmail.com
Thanks,
kahmed,
Main thing is Windows Mobile
doesnt have Stdin and
Stdout. CppUnitLite is using Std err for outputting . if you route your std err to visual studio out put window you can see the cppunitlite output. or you can overload std err to write to a file. hope this information helped you.
Thanks,
Poornima
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